It is interesting how you sit down and rewind your life for a specific period of time and watch yourself grow from being someone you were never meant to be to being someone you always wanted to be. My life over the past months has taught me quite a few precious lessons, the ones I intend to keep with me all my life, so I can draw out of them the wisdom I would need to continue with who I want to be.
Perhaps, the biggest awakening I had gotten in my life was to see myself for what I really am and stop being the hapless soul I had made myself into. So deluded was I into believing that I did not deserve happiness and I just forgot all about that blissful word. This, I could do by opening my heart and mind to people who have always been there, in the shadows, waiting for me to wake up from my reverie. And then there are those who come into your life and sweep you off your feet, rock you world and turn it upside down. Opening up and seeing myself through their eyes was the key.
Whenever you are down in life, always look at yourself through the eyes of the one who believes in you much more than you allow yourself to.
Then there was that time, where I pushed myself to the limit of breaking, to achieve what I had dreamed of being all along. The time where I fretted about all the wasted time over worthless things and people, worried that I did not deserve the dream I had because I simply wasn't worth it, mooned over what will happen to my future now that I have nothing left to stand for and still somehow found the strength to give it my best shot.
Whenever you think that you have nothing to look forward to, the least you can do is not look behind at all that went past by. What you have is now and you'd better give it your best.
When my future seemed absolutely bleak because the ghosts of my past had chased away what life there was left in me, I had tried to blot out as much of it as was humanly possible and tried to revive my life back again. I held on to a tiny sliver of hope that maybe, just maybe, I deserved to be loved. The months of despair where I was lying in remorse and the distaste I had for myself for not having handled the situations well initially. The days of agony imagining that I had probably lost the best part of my life.
Whenever things look bleak, hold on to hope, even if its the weakest thread you have got. Strengthen your hopes by adding some love to it.
At the end of the day, I stand a winner. I have all the work I put in, shape out as my dreams. All the love I once gave away, has now returned a thousand-fold to keep me happy. More than anything else, I feel I have myself. The person I always was. The soul that knows to fight and withstand the hardships that may come its way.
Perhaps, the biggest awakening I had gotten in my life was to see myself for what I really am and stop being the hapless soul I had made myself into. So deluded was I into believing that I did not deserve happiness and I just forgot all about that blissful word. This, I could do by opening my heart and mind to people who have always been there, in the shadows, waiting for me to wake up from my reverie. And then there are those who come into your life and sweep you off your feet, rock you world and turn it upside down. Opening up and seeing myself through their eyes was the key.
Whenever you are down in life, always look at yourself through the eyes of the one who believes in you much more than you allow yourself to.
Then there was that time, where I pushed myself to the limit of breaking, to achieve what I had dreamed of being all along. The time where I fretted about all the wasted time over worthless things and people, worried that I did not deserve the dream I had because I simply wasn't worth it, mooned over what will happen to my future now that I have nothing left to stand for and still somehow found the strength to give it my best shot.
Whenever you think that you have nothing to look forward to, the least you can do is not look behind at all that went past by. What you have is now and you'd better give it your best.
When my future seemed absolutely bleak because the ghosts of my past had chased away what life there was left in me, I had tried to blot out as much of it as was humanly possible and tried to revive my life back again. I held on to a tiny sliver of hope that maybe, just maybe, I deserved to be loved. The months of despair where I was lying in remorse and the distaste I had for myself for not having handled the situations well initially. The days of agony imagining that I had probably lost the best part of my life.
Whenever things look bleak, hold on to hope, even if its the weakest thread you have got. Strengthen your hopes by adding some love to it.
At the end of the day, I stand a winner. I have all the work I put in, shape out as my dreams. All the love I once gave away, has now returned a thousand-fold to keep me happy. More than anything else, I feel I have myself. The person I always was. The soul that knows to fight and withstand the hardships that may come its way.
2 comments:
Totally agree with your 'facts of living life'... at some stage in our llives, we all fall down and fall down hard at that.. its motivating ourselves to get up and continue that makes all the difference.
Loved this! Totally agree with what you have written and learned. Me too working on a similar story and this would definitely help me in that. Thanks! :)
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