Its been a while since I wrote something personal. I mean yeah, this blog is personal but what I meant to say is that I haven't written a "me" post in a long long time. All I filled up this place with are stories and silly verses that came to my head.
Somewhere along the past few days I have begun to realise that I am not taking my life as seriously
as I am supposed to be taking it. Maybe I am just too cocky and too confident! I am not putting enough work when I should be. Thinking about stuff that can be put on a hold! Wasting my time watching comedy re-runs and soppy movies, reading leisurely when I am supposed to be cramming for my Practical Exams. I don't know why nothing is bothering me! Its not a nice feeling, this! I know that I will feel guilty about all this waste of time later. But, I am the kinda gal who doesn't allow herself to feel guilty thinking that there is no time to feel guilty! (Go figure!!)
I practically live on the edge and am so freakishly sure of myself that I will not fall! Half of me keeps expecting that huge fall which will break each arrogant bone in my body! Its the same half of me which prays and hopes that someday I will have enough sense not to procastinate.
This post is another sham, you know? Another excuse in a long list, another reason to laze around! Gosh! If I were to look at my own life living outside my body I would die of Hypertension.(Speaking of which I am supposed to go and study the Epidemiology of HTN for my practicals boohoo!)
Sometimes I feel I don't deserve the success(that I eventually get *rolling eyes*) after the little work I put in! Its like I'm sub-consciously waiting for something to break and fall on my arrogant head!
This should not stop you people from wishing me luck alright? Even if you feel that I don't deserve it just throw it my way, wontcha?
Shamelessly cheerful, so cheers!
Somewhere along the past few days I have begun to realise that I am not taking my life as seriously
as I am supposed to be taking it. Maybe I am just too cocky and too confident! I am not putting enough work when I should be. Thinking about stuff that can be put on a hold! Wasting my time watching comedy re-runs and soppy movies, reading leisurely when I am supposed to be cramming for my Practical Exams. I don't know why nothing is bothering me! Its not a nice feeling, this! I know that I will feel guilty about all this waste of time later. But, I am the kinda gal who doesn't allow herself to feel guilty thinking that there is no time to feel guilty! (Go figure!!)I practically live on the edge and am so freakishly sure of myself that I will not fall! Half of me keeps expecting that huge fall which will break each arrogant bone in my body! Its the same half of me which prays and hopes that someday I will have enough sense not to procastinate.
This post is another sham, you know? Another excuse in a long list, another reason to laze around! Gosh! If I were to look at my own life living outside my body I would die of Hypertension.(Speaking of which I am supposed to go and study the Epidemiology of HTN for my practicals boohoo!)
Sometimes I feel I don't deserve the success(that I eventually get *rolling eyes*) after the little work I put in! Its like I'm sub-consciously waiting for something to break and fall on my arrogant head!
This should not stop you people from wishing me luck alright? Even if you feel that I don't deserve it just throw it my way, wontcha?
Shamelessly cheerful, so cheers!
12 comments:
thats about me in my last university year, when everyone was working hard to get through and i hardly did but still everything went smooth.
But then i learned if you get things without struggling hard for them now it only means you struggled hard for them before.
You will never fall because people like you dont, they only fly high and keep amaze the rest of us :)
love you, girl!!
lol..enjoy urself all u can :D
hahaha! i like yur arrogant self i am so like tat smetimes ... err! maybe most of the times...
so a BIG bEST of the best of the LUCK
for you Madame.
Ah..I never studied till I really had to. Was too lazy. Was the kinds who'd get a first class by listening in class and then writing the same thing.
I've felt that jaded/lazy/saturated feeling. Don't worry you'll soon get over it!
Hey... come on girl... Never regret Never feel guilty. Thats essential to keep u going. All success u get are the ones u defntly deserve. Its also an indication if u can get this level so easily, what u need to is much more.
BTW, I'm in ur blogroll... Thats a big surprise. I never know u read my blogs :-)
Hey... Nw I realised it.. ur name has chnaged to "Black Coffee"..oops why so?
u deserve THE best. thats why u've got it. :)
*HUGZ* u look so beautiful!
Keshi.
hehe cute...u write well gal..so much so that to make the reader glued to the post even if just about nothin :D
@lena
thats a nice thing to say, dear girl! :)
love ya too!!
@maverick
i sure am!
@veens
thank you!
@tia
thank you for droppin by! thanks.. :)
@cm-chap
gotcha!! :P
i changed it just like that. thot this suits me better!
@keshi
thak you so much dear! and thanks! :)
((hugs))
@mez
thank you! thats a lovely compliment really!!
too cocky and too confident! yaa right! nervous and paranoid wud be more appropriate.. its just laziness not cockiness or arrogance
vemu, i am too cocky n arrogant!!
i did not write that out of nervousness.
but then again, maybe you are right! maybe if i re read the post at a later date i wud feel that too!
i laughed... procrastination is my middle name and i can never sit and take tension abt that according to my no tension policy :P
anyways alll the berrry best :)
PS: mujhe bhi bol de, exams from 5th may
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